Blaaaagggh okay so I completely freaked out over coming back here, I felt all kinds of pressure and nervous and asdfgdhjxnhgvjn
This blog will become a side blog kind of thing, where I’ll just post the odd picture of my rats and stuff.
I will now be lurking over here
I figured, a new year coming up, deserves a fresh start :)
All our girlbutts :)
GUESS WHO’S BACK.
Hey ducks! I’ve missed you :) As you may of noticed, I took a leave of absence from this blog. I’m not going to apologise for it, as I needed it for my mental health. Now, I’m reinvigorated and happy to be back. TIME FOR SOME ‘SPLAINING AND SOME CATCHING UP ON MY LIFE WEEEEEEEEEEE
First of all, we have lost a number of rats, it’s been a hard few months. At the same time, we have gained new ones, so I plan on making videos to show them all off and introduce them.
I’ve dropped out of uni, and am enrolling in a TAFE childcare course instead. It’s been a long road to figure out what I actually want to do with my life career wise.
My health has been extremely bad. I’ve been taken to the emergency department more times than I can count. None of the doctors actually know what is wrong with me, they haven’t seen anything like it before. My GAD, depression, and PTSD have gotten a lot worse. I’m now being super careful about my triggers, which means I will be unfollowing some of you guys. Please, don’t take it personally. I love you as a person, it’s just for my own sanity.
I’m quitting my job! I’ve got my two weeks in. It’s due to a number of reasons which I can tell if you’re really interested.
Andrew and I, as of October 31st, are engaged.
And basically, the reason I had to take a break was because tumblr can be extremely triggering for me. I’ve been over on my other blog, rattysrabble, which is a Flight Rising blog, as it was a safe place for me, as my dash was pure dragons all day. Here it was iffy, things wouldn’t be tagged and would trigger me, or sometimes just being signed in triggered me, as the person who introduced me to tumblr was my abuser.
But anyway, I’m back now, and will be doing the videos tonight.
Goodbye human rights.
Goodbye being treated as a fucking human being.
As a queer female, I am so fucked by Abbot being elected.
He is our version of Mitt Romney.
In all seriousness, I’m finding it harder and harder not to up and move to Canada.
GUYS SERIOUSLY GO VOTE A 5 FOR THIS
IT’S A SQUISHABLE PLUSH RAT
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[Head of a puma on tessellated background that alternates between dark purple and dark blue. Top text “Fake being okay” Bottom text “Every Single Day”]
Yup. Get up, ignoring the hole in your soul or how awful you feel, or triggered you are. Go to work, go to school, pretend you’re okay all for the sake of your grades/career. Welcome to my life.
I am sorry for the lack of posting and the fact that I haven’t been talking much,I’ve just been really struggling lately so I’ve been retreating from this tumblr for my own sanity.
Often a lot of stuff that is incredibly triggering for me is posted by people I follow so it’s hard for me to be here on good days let alone bad ones. I’ve been over on my flight rising blog and flight rising itself almost constantly because nothing triggers me over there, instead it’s all pretty dragons and lovely people guaranteed.
I’m sorry for being gone so much and being so distant, but without any weed and my medication failing I need to try and keep myself as level as possible.
I do love all you guys though, never doubt that xxx
theminimonsters replied to your post: I almost passed out because a…
i am so sorry sweetheart come here i have ice cream and heat packs. i’m lying in the dark trying to scare off my own cramps i could use company.
Unless the ice cream is dairy free I’ll end up even worse >_< But yes I would join in the heat packs and darkness
I almost passed out because a creature-that-must-not-be-named ran across my hand when I was cleaning the bathroom and I am still shaky and nauseous
I now also have really bad cramps because these days any really strong emotion causes really bad cramps
Like, bad enough to make me ill and shaky and not really able to function
I don’t even now what the fuck is going on with my body anymore
I made a Flight Rising blog so I can stop spamming this account
It’s over here
All I want is to grind the jigsaws for another hour or so so I can save up to gene my bbs
But I am in so much pain I can’t see properly/and am too shaky to move the pieces around properly
Flight Rising why must treasure be so hard to get ;~;